So I share, not even sure if what I have to say is anything anyone actually wants to read. See the problem is I have so much inside me to get out that I don’t even know where to start. I have tried this once before and I blogged pretty regularly for awhile, then I just stopped. Everything seems so complicated and I really want to be able to write and inspire and at this very moment I am just writing to clear the ball of anxiety and emotion that is sitting in my chest. I can’t inspire others when I don’t have the ability to inspire or uplift myself. I have to carry the weight. The weight of my children and of my husband and of my own health. Right now I need to reprioritize, reorganize, and revitalize my mind.
So from here on out is where you see me begin healing from this life and begin this new journey, a journey where I find myself. This school year is coming to an end. My first born daughter is leaving middle school and entering high school. My first born son is leaving elementary and entering intermediate school and my baby is starting school and going to kindergarten. For the last 14 years I have always had a child at home and in 5 1/2 months all of my children will be in school. I have no idea what I will do or even who I am, who I am supposed to be. Yes, this is going to be a journey all right and I admit I am scared and nervous about what the days will hold.
I know that God will work it out and I am all in.