Reeling with Raynauds

    If you have never had children then the agony I am about to describe when you see your child go through physical pain won’t make sense. There is a fear that hits your brain, hits your soul when one of your children comes against something, that they much less you has no control over. Most mothers

A Final Goodbye

   I will always ask myself did I do enough, were the words I said heard by the ones I loved? I wish that I could name only one person as I sit here today and share this part of my soul with all of you, but there are so many people so close to

Deepest Hole of Life

   Sometimes the darkness from these holes of life consume him so quickly and take him so deep I am not sure I will ever get him back. It’s black, so black and he goes so very deep to a place that even after 15 years I still struggle to understand. This disease is a

The Amputee in Me

  What do you see when you look in the mirror? Honestly I don’t know if anybody’s image of themselves in their head matches the image they see in the mirror. That is defiantly the case when you are an amputee. Regardless if you wear a prosthesis all the time or if you spend most of

Grace

   Underserving favor, I feel so undeserving of many things and Grace is definitely at the top of that list. Love would have to be next on that list, I guess people would probably describe me as putting on a brave face, however I feel completely unlovable. So if I am not worthy of love why would

Always My Safe Place!

When everything in my world turns upside down he is the one thing that is always right. Arriving to this place in our marriage wasn’t an easy task by any means. It’s been a long road, one not without its fair share of bumps, many bumps, uphill battles, curves and detours. Yet it has also come

When there is nothing left to do!

  So I share, not even sure if what I have to say is anything anyone actually wants to read.  See the problem is I have so much inside me to get out that I don’t even know where to start. I have tried this once before and I blogged pretty regularly for awhile, then I